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hurm....i just dont know how to start...facing with a lot of problem  ....huh...plastic plastic plastic...should i be a plastic.....acting like shes the best one,but in deep .....busuk mcm bangkai tikus.....

its about life....

i dont know what im thinking....some times i feel like life is just so plastic!!!
seems a good person infrnt,but not at back....such a freak..i dont know what was in their mind,but......hurmm....did im to prnoid...did im to much....did im wrong....what was im doing till they act like tuutttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im just like an alien ..did im do wrong?why...why it was so many plastic people around me....im standing hear just as a "hamba ALLAH" that wanted a happy and peaceful life...but what i just get is...i dont know how to dscribe those in words...so speechless.....but im still thankful to allah because trust to me to being khalifah in this earth..still give me a ....i dont know,but maybe a test to make me be a though person...to gain my "keimanan" to him....subhanallah.....plese give me a strgh....plese give me a strigh way to face my future...plese make me to be a thankful person ya allah.ya allah,im bagging you ya allah,dont make me to be like  munafik person,get me away from the bad soul.....amin...amin ya robbal alamin..

cuti sem yg melampau....

anak harunnnn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!cuti sem kali ni 3 minggu je..apekejadahny smue ini....sedih kot...hai la nasib......adoiai...diorang ni kalau stakat nk bg 3 mgu je cuti baik jgn bg...sambung je trus smpai 5 sem..bio x pyah balik trus..nak juge bio aq trsikse...apekejadahny....haii...dah cukup sabo dah aq ngan kerenah ni..balik2 kmi student jgk yg jd testimoni...x sian ke kt ktorang......bagai nak senak jantung aq ni siapkan keje...esment 2 mgu jd sminggu..maut aq nak ngejo...haiii....sakit otak la aq ..............kalau la melukis ni 5 mnt blh siap ok jgk....ni stu drwing pn dah bpe jam...sendi tgn aq pndah naik longgarrr...x tau ap nak jd dah..kkkuuuuusuuttttttttttttttttttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

kesilapan silam..

dlm ksunyian malam ni....tringat pulak kat mak dgn abah..jauhnye diorang dri aq..ape la yg diorang buat skarang ni...tgk ndustan kot..hahahaha...sedar atau x...dah lame mase brlalu..dah hampir setahun aq kat kelantan ni..huhu...3 sem lg grad la...umur pn dah mningkat...mak abah pn dah tue..sempat ke aq nak balas budi diorang...dari mude sampai la ke tue....keje siang malam...cri duit utk anak2...dulu muke tegang je...sekarang dah nampak dah kedut2nye....sayu ble ppandang diorang..bia kadang2 sakit hati dgn tutur katenye..tp..bile d fikir balik...mampu ke kte nak marah,layak ke diri kte nak menghine mereke?sape je kte ni...x terbalas semue pengorbanan diorang...xkan dik kerane teguran tu kte nak terase...ble aq fikir balik....agakny terampun ke kesilapan aq pade diorang...betape hebatnye seorang ibu,sanggup bergadai nyawe untuk anak2..adekah setimpal dgn ape yg kte pulangkan pade die...layak ke kte d gelar anak kalau kte sendiri sanggup buat ibu menangis...dulu..x penah aq terfikir bende ni..tp skarang...kalau lah d beri peluang untuk aq blik ke mase lalu..akan aq turut smue perintah die...mak..dulu yg cantik,sekarang dah bekedut dah,,,sanggup hidup susah dmi anak2,dulu kulit mulus,,dmi anak2 die sanggup pg keje sampai hitam,kasar jari jemari,pnat lelah x penah d ungkit,,tp apekah balasan kte pade seorang mak?cume seorang,...satu2nye ibu...xde due..xde tge..xkan la sebab sikit kesalahan kte nak benci dy..egonye seorang anakk..anak yg lahir dri badannye sndri.....dri sebodoh2 manusie dy didik sampai la kte knal erti kehidupan...tpi..kte x penah cri kebaikan die....malah kebusukan dy jgak yg kte pertikai...sapelah kte nak ucapkan keburukan ibu...ya allah.......sempat ke aq memohon ampun pade mereke...sempat ke aq pandang raut wajah mereke lg..mate yg sayu....senyuman yg terukir d wajah x kala anak itu lahir ke bumi,,dapatkah aq lihat lg senyuman semanis itu....kenape bru hari ni aq terfikir....abah....yg dulunye gagah,,,sanggup x beganti baju demi anak2 .....punye la susah,...kongsi sepinggan nasi dgn mak,janji anak2 kenyang,,sanggup berjauhan dgn isteri dmi kesenangan anak2..tp..adekah ianye same spt ape yg kte bri..sebesar itukah pengorbanan kte pade dy...ble balik..tgk abah tdo ...tedetik kat hati ni...tue dah abah aq..pnuh dah kedut kat dahi tu....dri mude sampai tue...x pnah merungut mintak kesenangan dari anak2...x pnah mintak ape2 pn......betape mulienye seorang bape....tpi..mampu ke aq bgi kesenangan pade diorang pulak....ya allah....bantulah aq berjaye ....supaye tebalas pnat lelah diorang selame ni.,...rindunye aq pade diorang..manusia hebat begelar ibu bape....

pujaan malayaaa.......

huhuhuhu.....my new fvrt song...hehehe...dalam beberape hari ni....banyak masaalah..n ade yg dah selesai....masaalah gigi...aritu bkan main sakit lg..dah g clinic.first aq pgi xdapat nk cbut..sbb still sakit..then papa kasi ubat pnt killer ngan antibiotek..dah 5 hari pas tu kurang dah sakitnye,,aq p g la smule..nak cbut tp x blh..bayangkan papa dah bgi 3 botol ubt bius but still lg sakit....tepakse la g tampal gg tu dulu...melayang lg fulus aq yg x berape nak cukup ni....xpelah...gg pnye pasal en...wat2 redha je la....after 3 days aq pg lagi sekali...perghhhh!!!!!sekali yg cbt tu mama derhhh!!!sib baik la dah x bpe sakit...dy pn bg bius..untuk botol prtame,,,smmangnye xde efect utk aq....tp lpas je dy cucuk lg stu...teruccc.....melayang gg aq ke lantai..hahaha..mase tu mmg ase puas sgt!!!!selesai la stu bab...n pasal si dye.....fuhh...susah gak aq nak ckp..tp ble slow2 aq ckp dy x faham...aq pn ape lg...aq jujur je ap yg aq rase nak ckp aq ckp je..hahaha....dah lpas tu dy pn blh trime...aq pn ok je dah..cume ble lame2 mcm ni......ase rindu la pulakkkk...biase de yg tpon...amek tau hal kte..tp skarang.......hp tu fungsinye mp3 je la.......................PENGGANTI???? mmg x de tertarik lg ngan mane2 lelaki...kecuali f.a...huhu....sangat klakar..tp.......blh skadar minat je la.....artist kot....aq ni ape je lah...tp tgu aq jdi fshion designer ntiiii!!!!aq akan cube cri jalan untuk dkat ngan dy,...bkn nak wat bf pn...itu grentiii....grenti x dapat....hahahaha....tp cukup skadar rakan sekerje,.....huhu..mane la tau....impian jd kenyataan...tpi..persoalannye...
                                                               MAMPU KE?

tolonglah!!!!!!cinta...????tidakkkkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

love...it was very complicated....most of a year im trying to  ecpt him.bt...i still cant do  that..hummm,...ape nak buat ni...mcm mane nak selesaikan,,dah dekat sthin aq cube nak terime,mule2 aq ingat boleh,but its not easy...cube untuk sygkan dy mgkin aq boleh,,tp...entahla,,,dengan sikap dy yg lansung x mced,buat aq rase meluat,mcm  budak2 form 3 bru blajo nak bcple..haihhhh!!!!x retii la aq nak kate,dy kan lnsung x reti nak tunjuk yg dy tu smting we called man.he  acting like a boy who really need his mom to acmpny n guide him all the time,,n 4me,i need someone that can cntrol me,care of me,smone that can make me feel safe,cmftble and i know that he can affrd me...tp dy,lansung xde,,i dont think that he can be the best for me,i need an indpndent guy,but him....he cant stant by his self..in 19 years old,i thod he'll change,but.....it wont be happend,aq bkan nak cerite buruk dy,tp...aq x selese....dy lansung x tau ap nak buat dgn diri dy...ap yg dy tau  mtk tolong kakak cri kan keje,abg cri kan keje,pakcik crikan tmpat blajar,,nak buat ap2sume pakai org dalam..duduk tmpang rumah org lame2,ap dy ingat org suke ke?aq jd gf dy lak rse malu..dy lansung x fikir..x reti nak majukan dri sendiri..heee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!so anoyed!!ape la yg ade dalam kepalehotak dy pn aq x tau la..mcm tuke lelaki?mcm mane nak jdi pemimpin kalau dah diri sendiri pn xmampu nak hndle,....smue bgantung org  lain ..aq tau,,nobdy prfct..but its not mean that we cant chnge,nobdy is prfctbutwe canbeprfctaslong as we tryig to be..god sys:he'll neverchange people tii thepeople change their self..adoiiii.rimas knal org mcmni..nak break,but i dunt know where to start...nak ckp trus trang rase kejam sgt,nak tpu t bdose plak..but i still not found the bestway to expln..kalau aq ckp bukan faham pon...susah la....stressss laaaaaaaaaa.............................skarang ni aq dah jd benci,meluatmenyampah!tolong la...aq xnak main kan hati dy..tphati aq kate x..aqx boleh trime dy...aq x rase dy mampu bimbing aq stu hari nanti...mcmmane nak buat ni...

sakit gigi la sengal!!!!

huhuhu......sakitnyer gigiaku.....nak g jmpe dentist takut la x tau nape da lebam pipi aku ni.sampai menggelupas kulit aku tau....tapix pe tu kan satu ujian tuk aku,eh poyo sgt ayat aku ni....hayakkkk!!!!!ci ai la...